It's Been A While

it's been a while

since i last posted on this blog. this blog which previously known for its dead humor and perceptions on life have become some stupid and lame blog. i did not know what went wrong. maybe it is just me growing old, hence the creative juices stopped flowing. yeah really.

it's been a while

remember my post on how laid-back i am years ago? how i can keep calm all the way down to the ends of the world? well i guess no. i cannot keep up with my limits on patience, this calm lake had been turned into a stupid-active volcano which inconsistently erupting on daily basis. i did not know what happened to my calm. maybe i killed my own patience?

it's been a while

i posted on always being positive and always take a good view on life? and i used to say that "no matter how fucked-up today is, there is still tomorrow" . well no. do not believe in any of this crap already. sorry i have been misleading you guys. this world is a dog-eat-dog world. you want to take a good view on life? seriously don't make me laugh. there is no such thing as that. there's nothing like in a movie or such. just plain old bitter reality waiting to grab a bite at you and laugh as you writhe in pain. maybe the world is just another fucked-up place like many others. i do not know. don't blame me, don't judge me, for i am too, human like you guys. 

it's been a while

remember that i closed this blog for a time being? now i opened it, free for all to read and think. this blog is an example on how someone can rise and fall , how someone can turn from being an optimist to a full-time pessimist. don't try to comfort me, don't try to persuade me. i don't care. 

oh did i mention this is the first since the beginning of 2012? well, still not too late to say happy new year.

whatever

http://elhmo.blogspot.com/

lalu aku pun menyibuk. 

jangan la gaduh gaduh. kita semua lubang hidung semua ada dua. kentut pun busuk jugak. malu la dekat orang.

Stupid Blog's Going to Die

asyik aku sahaja nak jaga perasaan orang. perasaan aku ni siapa pulak nak jaga. nobody. nak harapkan simpati pulak aku ni. bodoh. walaupun muka aku ni mengindikasikan bahawa aku macam jenis tak punya perasaan mana tapi yelah kan. aku bukan robot. walaupun tu salah satu nickname yang aku dapat tapi yelah, manusia tetap manusia. aku tetap punya perasaan. jangan ingat aku let go semua benda yang orang lontar dekat aku, aku telan, masuk perut dan hadam terus. sure, aku maybe punya tahap sabar yang tinggi. tapi yelah kalau gunung berapi mati pun kalau dia nak meletup satu hari dia akan meletup jugak.

jangan ingat aku boleh get along well dengan semua orang means aku punya kepala ni boleh dipijak. no aku bukan naive. nampak je macam bodoh alang tapi sorry i know much better. much much better. atau sebenarnya aku takut nak stand up untuk diri sendiri? adakah kata kata previous aku dalam post ni saja nak menyedapkan hati aku? ya. maybe aku pun penakut jugak. boohoo. pity me. sorrylah. no more excitement in this crappy blog.

post emo? sukahatilah. at least aku tak post emo selalu macam kau orang. aku nak express feelings dekat siapa lagi? tiang lampu? biarla this dying blog jadi tempat aku post segala macam sampah.
not that anyone would read it anyways now. ini je cara aku boleh luahkan perasaan. with objects. blogs, games, anything that wouldn't talk back. to hell with this.